On October 29th, 2012, the night before my first GISHWHES, I made a promise to myself. A promise that I would get better. That I would find the strength to pull myself out of the pit of anxiety and depression that I had fallen into and I would find a place where I was proud of myself. Becoming a fan of Misha’s and allowing his paradigm on life to influence mine, participating in GISHWHES and finding a family in my girls- it’s saved me. Now, 2 years later, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been, and each day gets better and easier. Now it hasn’t been smooth sailing per say - It’s been an uphill fight the whole way, but on days when the company’s great, some days you don’t notice the climb at all.
But some days are still hard, and something I’ve always drawn hope from is this tweet. I know that it was originally meant as a joke, but something about it was so endearing to me, the words gave me strength on the harder days, thinking that there was someone out there who cared. At my autograph session at this most recent Vancon, I told Misha how instrumental he and this quote had been in giving me the courage to keep going, and asked if he would be willing to write it in his own handwriting, which he did immediately.
So here it is for all of you. If you need a reason tonight to be strong, to hold on- this is it. If you’re having a bad day and you just need to know that there is someone there- take this. I know it helped me, and I hope it can help you too.